Alaska

I wonder what it might be like to be within the same four walls as you again Pressed against the cabinet in your room I watch you throw the pillows to the floor Your daily affirmations in the corner of your mirror penned in lipstick I read 'em over three times on my own I resist the urge to add another line To your life To your time here Till it burns out with the lights Are you leaving or just getting home? It gets so hard for me to tell When I'm out here all alone Entangled in your presence while you told me of your time spent in Alaska We laughed about the silly things we've done for love But we were only kids then And I watched you get dressed for the very last time Just thinking how I'll never trace the contour of your spine with my fingertips again Watching my world become so small Now would you wait? Or are we terrified to let this marinate Over time or into something good? And I can't help but wonder if we really could But then I wonder if we even should Blow my mind I haven't felt this burning for some time now And I've been cold Selfishly aware of all my downfalls Then you come along To shake me out of nightmares To talk me back to sleep in peace The peace I find in you And you find in me And I won't disappear Don't you disappear on me