Soldier

I wish I could've said goodbye One more time Even wrote a letter And signed it on the dotted line But when you called me It's hard for me to press decline I guess I'm chasing all these feelings that we left behind But I know because you're toxic you just mess with minds Didn't mean you had to pick me and then mess with mine I should probably test the waters before I take a dive I guess I need to recognize that these scars On my body carry weight like a soldier Not the person I wished to be when I got older I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder But you left me freezing and it's hard to get over Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend Just cause I'm a soldier, Imma carry to the end I wish I could've left but it's hard for me to leave Cause you're tugging on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve I'm not mad that you left, I'm mad that I'm alone You could've said goodbye in person But on the phone Such a wicked way to leave I hate to see you go We had a family but you don't wanna be at home If I ever blame myself That'd be a bunch of nonsense Not my fault so I guess I will have to cut my losses But you left so fuckin fast that I just couldn't process I'm so sorry I'm the problem that's said on your conscious I'm sorry that we're falling out of broken patterns Broken hearts Broken home Broken shattered Sitting on your knees and you hope it matters Beggin baby please but you came close to damage You can't plead I gotta leave Carry the rest of And I kept my head up and my chest up And I keep my pride but my mind, you fuckin messed up And even though I'm out now You're the one that left us These scars on my body carry weight like a soldier Not the person I wished to be when I got older I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder But you left me freezing and it's hard to get over Cause a broken-hearted person only finds a heartless friend Just cause I'm a soldier, Imma carry to the end I wish I could've left but it's hard for me to leave Cause you're tugging on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve I tried to love myself for my collarbone Just to remind myself, I am not alone Just hoping that it would pass The path that we're on And all the memories that last after that you're gone Now even though I am moving on There's a part of me that wishes you to prove me wrong Some people don't deserve your heart for temporary That's my fault cause I made my heart just a sanctuary Thought you was the one I was supposed to marry, nah Not a scar that causes what I hold to carry on All of these emotions I hope to bury, nah Riding on a rollercoaster Oh so scary We said forever But that was only momentarily Oh so scary But I guess that we're better off Cause our wounds are infected and your [?] Had a necklace with your letter but I tore it off These scars on my body carry weight like a soldier Not the person I wished to be when I got older I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder But you left me freezing and it's hard to get over Cause a broken-hearted person only finds a heartless friend Just cause I'm a soldier, Imma carry to the end I wish I could've left but it's hard for me to leave Cause you're tugging on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve