Bottle It Up

I thought I saw you in the background Of your favorite neon scene I thought I saw us on the television The new American dream I thought maybe we could make it With the chemistry in my brain But now I just fake it I feel it slip away Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding Swallow my pride while I take a beating Bottle it up so that I can keep you safe You were the one I needed But I'm the one who changed The only things I think about is sex and death I'm running out of time and out of breath I don't know what I'm doing but I can't say no And I'm really okay dying all alone Why don't you tell me what's wrong with me And why I've been dodging my destiny oh no Got some things I can't let go Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding Swallow my pride while I take a beating Bottle it up so that I can keep you safe You were the one I needed But I'm the one who changed I think I finally understand But then you slip right through my hands Exactly like they planned it all along Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding But my ego's bleeding Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding Swallow my pride while I take a beating Bottle it up so that I can keep you safe You were the one I needed But I'm the one who changed