Always Almost There

She's making music for money, pop but it's "indie"

I'm making coffee for people who never thank me

He bought a house on Mulholland, mid-century modern

I'm barely making my rent, yeah it's down to the dollar

All my friends are getting better, I'm just getting scared

I can't get my shit together, always almost there

She said to "just manifest it, think affirmations"

But I don't know how to exist without self-deprecation

I think I might have a problem just like my dad did

I'm not an alcoholic, I just have depression

All my friends are getting better, I'm just getting scared

I can't get my shit together, always almost there

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose (my mind)

What if I lose?

What if I lose?

What if I lose all my friends?