Outside my pops house

Another night of writing

Another song that's hits at first but then don't seem exciting

Swear I'm lost now

Despite how much I'm fighting

Despite the pills I took my reflection still make me frightened

I'm

Out of options so I could bite it

Forbidden fruit to fame and success get my senses heightened

Funny how when I was lame was the time that I had the midus

Now the touch feeling gone got me questioning why I tried it

22 going on 23

21 was decent

Turning 20 was the death of me

Just try to imagine what it's like to lose your biggest need

Your biggest fan

Who plants the seed

The guidance for the times you weak

Man that's the shit that been exhausting me

God if you could bring it back no matter what it cost in me

I promise you that I could be the man that I was sought be

I oughta be it now but I'm a human shit it's hard to be

Never thought I'd see this loneliness

Hit a pen to feel some shit my drinking getting copious

Used to love my rapid thoughts but now I hate the focuses

You poke the bear too many times you end up with a broken stick

And now I'm Speaking to my holyness

Like why the fuck I need to live a life that's lacking coziness

Write the coldest shit when I'm alone my demons nosiness a weapon I've been tryna hide it from em need to close it in

Only listen when I'm on the stage

Microphone in hand cutting deeper then some razor blades

Get the picture but you need the frame

Welcome to my brain this shit a maze I'm tryna maintain

Only listen when I'm on the stage

Microphone in hand cutting deeper then some razor blades

Get the picture but you need the frame

Welcome to my brain this shit a maze I'm tryna maintain