Heavy

I spend more time in the shower now to spend less time in tears And it don't help to know that I could go much lower from here Not sure how much I can take at this point I guess we'll find out I'd take back last week in a heartbeat before I figured out Somethings are too heavy to put down Too heavy so I carry them around And I tell them what they wanna hear I'll be fine there is nothing to fear Fake a smile and I can tell that we Ignore I'm lying to myself Here Oh the less that I talk the more I'm feeling alone It's not a secret for some reason though I can't let them know And the days kinda blur 'cause all I can do is wait So now I'm staying inside reading novels to escape And I tell them what they wanna hear I'll be fine there is nothing to fear Fake a smile and I can tell that we Ignore I'm lying to myself here And I tell them what they wanna hear I'll be fine there is nothing to fear Fake a smile and I can tell that we Ignore I'm lying to myself Here Would you care if I told you that I was lying Mmm... I'm shit scared and sad am I that good at hiding Well I guess I'll stick to writing And just tell them what they wanna hear I'll be fine there is nothing to fear Fake a smile and I can tell that we Ignore I'm lying to myself (And I tell them) I keep lying to myself (I'll be fine and) Ignore I'm lying to myself (Fake a smile and) Lying to myself (Keep on lying) I just keep lying to myself here