Misunderstood

They don't believe in me anymore Why Since I lost my cousins I haven't been the same Mom's going thru a divorce and pops family acting like we don't exist anymore I guess relationship change when people are no longer together but I stayed the same so truth is I shall remain Unbreakable Don't spend your life in chains It's not fair to you Truth is my bm loves me more than she loves my seed And I know he not hers but that shit still confuses me Some times I just want to give it all up Like maybe I'm not the best father to my children Or maybe I'm not the best son to my moms and I know i promised her shit will get better But I'm turning 30 And my future aint clear to me Music aint where it need to be Not much they can write on my damn eulogy This shit aint new to me Im been down and out before Five keep telling me to think positive and shit Like we gonna make it we to great to be living in someone's basement And I hear em but shit aint coming fast enough A 9-5 nigga that aint adding up Im from Staten Island Where life aint worth shit unless you light enough And I know it goes on in other places but I never been I can only speak on the shit i see happening Life is a dangerous road I feel like I'm gonna crash again Until next time I don't want to go on babaling