Reflecting on what made the man I see in the reflection

Was it Jesus and the blessings

Or the demons and depression.

I just oppose the feelings of the pressure

They see me grafting don’t know there’s grief in my endeavours.

I’ve had tear drops running down ma face, till I taste, henny make em taste a lot better

Gotta show the levels, they know I’m a hot steppa

Baddie wanna mix telling me come press her.

And Lord you know I’m trynna be a good man,

I’m trynna do a lot, so I keep running I can’t look back

My bros would sell it out the book bag,

Had line paper fore’ they wrote or ever could rap.

Before they ever could spit,

We was all just good kids, look at what the hood did.

Look at what hood done

Had a fair share baddies I been looking for a good one.

But to girls girls that I draw I’m not tied

Said they want the knot tied

Not tidez, I’m here juggin

I’m exhausted not tired.

So she pretty and patterned but see I ain’t got time

Used to see relationships and think rah I just want mine.

Lost drive, tough times

Uncle and my don died.

I was here hating living brudda bun a love life

I was gonna stop mine

Depressed asking God why

Still keep it G jigga I can not cry.

And if my Lord wept, why can’t I weep as well?

Why can’t I weep as well?

Strong but I’m weak and frail

Father, I need some help.

Used to think opening up was a scam

I was broken and lost and detached.

All this pain that I’d just wanna stop

Burning but kept it bottled in like a Molotov.

So I’d focus on the next piece that I’d wanna cop

Or the gyal there looking sexy that I’d wanna chop

Thinking back I was just looking for love a lot

It makes sense cah I weren’t talking to God enough.

Vices wasn’t right for me,

In this society

It’s such a rare sight you see a black man crying we

Just take it on the chin move on

They beat us down it made us too strong

But I swear we gotta change.

Cah when I talked bout my mental that didn’t fix it on the day

But as soon as I did was like a burden gone away

Problem shared, problem halved so my shoulders lost a weight

We been fed a lie, ignoring it won’t stop the pain.

And if my Lord wept, why can’t I weep as well?

Why can’t I weep as well?

Strong but I’m weak and frail

Father, I need some help.