She said
How much longer must I fake my own happiness
Did it occur to you that I am just so sick of this
This reminder of misery
This damning you've done to me
She screamed and screamed
How could you destroy my own sanity
I'm done
I'm exhausted from the pain
I look at you as though you're going to change for me
But you are so selfish, so bitter, it's so clear to see
Help me to see what's wrong with me
Faced, to deal with the constant reminder that I am not good enough for your own
Taste, I wish I had someone to help me through struggles
I'm begging you take it away
I've been torn apart
You've lied all from the start
Please I beg you stop
My heart
I am sorry I'm not like before
Where I was the one you had adored
Tell me, why am I not good enough
I hate so much that I need your love
Where do I go
How will I know
I've lost myself
I need your help
Please tell me why
You chose this side
Torn and beaten
I've staggered my way from reason
Feel the knife deepen
To depths I cannot break free from
Help me process
Why I still continue to darken
While you progress
And smile like I meant nothing to you
I've lost a part of me
From sadness I can't be free
I'm nothing more
Just a blackened soul
underneath
It tortures me
It's breaking me
It's all but torn my soul
And dreams
