Afraid of Quiet (feat. Ben Tomalin)

Promise I'm fine when I'm not See my minds spinning round and around with my thoughts I'm a pot with no lid and the water is bubbling Bout to boil over the temperatures doubling Siren alarm in the night And I can't stop the noise Cos I swear there's a fire somewhere I can't see it or hear it or smell it or taste it But what if I'm not prepared how will I face it If I could calm myself down Just breath in and breath out Take a second Let go of control Then my mind could be free But what if i drop the ball for just a moment Who would pick it up, a friend or an opponent Can't I just calm down Stop the sound Take a breath and just relax But sometimes I'm afraid of quiet And what that would mean Cry a lot, fill a room with my tears I'm like Alice, except I'm the only mad one here Wish I could face what is coming But i keep on running I'm chasing the bunny Did I wake you, my noise was too loud, I'm sorry next time I'll turn my grief down If my turmoil troubles you I can just leave and I'll cry in another room I swear that I'm in control Or at least I will be Working on Regulation Affirmation And therapy Breath control Become a better me Can't I just calm down Stop the sound Take a breath and just relax But sometimes I'm afraid of quiet And what that would mean Tossing and turning The suns in the sky It's 5am I can't close my eyes Want to turn off Just have some peace White noise is here And I can't sleep Tossing and turning The suns in the sky It's 5am I can't close my eyes Want to turn off Just have some peace White noise is here And I can't sleep Tossing and turning The suns in the sky It's 5am I can't close my eyes Want to turn off Just have some peace White noise is here And I can't sleep I swear that I'm in control or least I will be I am ruler of my mind and it will bow To me! To me! But sometimes I'm afraid of quiet and what that would-