Love-Lies-Bleeding

I want to feel lighter again

But I'm just so bogged down in all this heavy shit

I want to feel like myself

But it's been a decade of heavy social drinking

What does it mean to pick myself up by my bootstraps?

I don't know anything about anything

It's strange to say when it seems I'm always thinking

Like my mind is a wound that's always bleeding

What am I trying to prove

When I speak so down on myself and my mental health?

It's like I'm trying to lose every battle I face

Before I even get there

I fall on my own sword

Why do I want to be alone

When everybody I know is having fun?

I've got all this acetone

I keep on scrubbing but this skin never feels like home

Why do I always stretch the truth?

Are all of my insecurities clinical?

I keep on tying my own noose

'Cause maybe peace and I, we're just immiscible

We're just immiscible

What am I going to lose if I don't even try

To untangle this goddamned mess in my head?

I know my grief is opalescent at best

Can all this suffering really be sublimated?

I want to feel lighter again

But I'm just so bogged down in all of this heavy shit

Can I come around this bend?

Will I finally learn to love myself?