Inner Ghosts

All of my colors fade to gray

I'm dead inside, but play it shay

Shit, I am drowning in these trenches

Like a sinking castaway

Weak hawthorn fences I can't break

Where the fuck did my youth go?

I can't hear it in my head

My head

The watery eyes that we swallowed

The bones that were burnt

And the promises we both left unsaid

All of my colors fade to gray

I'm dead inside, but play it shay

Shit, I am drowning in these trenches

Like a sinking castaway

Weak hawthorn fences I can't break

Tell my mum is not her fault

That I am writing this death note

It's just my inner ghosts

I'm too frail to read what I wrote

I'm too scared to slit my own throat

All of my colors fade to gray

I'm dead inside, but play it shay

Shit, I am drowning in these trenches

Like a sinking castaway

Weak hawthorn fences I can't break

The bulb is already burnt out

And I feel bad I can't do this anymore

I can only remember irrelevant stuff now

Like the time we raised hell at that store

Or that girl that only texted me

When she was drunk

So I could go knock at her door

And I know it is not the right choice

But the world seems quieter beyond this shore

All of my colors fade to gray

I'm dead inside, but play it shay

Shit, I am drowning in these trenches

Like a sinking castaway

Weak hawthorn fences I can't break

All of my colors fade to gray

I'm dead inside, but play it shay