This Kinda Hurt

Tried to call my momma yesterday

And forgot, ain't no way she picking up

People always ask me how I am

And I say how much time have you got

Then I'm laughing it off

Hennessy and weed

My therapy, yeah

I dance with the devil on the edge

To pretend that I ain't fallin off

But I can't sleep

I can't eat

Y'all ain't hearin' me good

I can't sleep

I can't eat

Oh no

I got pain in me

That you never see

It's the way we were raised, you see

In this town there's a big drought

Real tears we keep way down

I got pain in me

That's okay with me

Weren't the choice that I made, see this

Kinda hurt, we don't talk about

Real tears we keep way down

"Boy, get a grip, don't be a bitch"

Were the phrases I heard growin' up

But God forbid I even try and say

They're the reason I'm damaged as fuck

And can never open up

Hearing and listening, are

Two different things, yeah

So long I've been dancing on the edge

They can't tell I'm so close to falling off

But I can't sleep

I can't eat

Y'all ain't hearin' me good

I can't sleep

I can't eat

Oh no

I got pain in me

That you never see

It's the way we were raised, you see

In this town there's a big drought

Real tears we keep way down

I got pain in me

That's okay with me

Weren't the choice that I made, see this

Kinda hurt, we don't talk about

Fuck it, I'm broken (Fuck it, I'm broken)

There's, there's no

There's no harm in showing (Fuck it, I'm broken)

That I ain't really coping

But I know that I'll make it through, oh

I got pain in me

That you never see

It's the way we were raised, you see

In this town there's a big drought

Real tears we keep way down

I got pain in me

That's okay with me

Weren't the choice that I made, see this

Kinda hurt, we don't talk about

Real tears we keep way down