Can I Vent

I've been lately on the internet,

Browsing through the disconnects.

Surfing through Safari with these genius bars they will soon forget.

I clear the cache, my Rolodex.

I restart the ISP.

Reboot into a newer threat.

My God, can I vent?

The only veteran still paying rookie dues, I guess.

Should have given me my respect, dawg,

Now I'ma take it, yes.

I've been plotting out the future, no signs of second best.

I've expired giving a hundred percent and getting back less.

What's the cost of rest, 'cause my people need me at my best.

Counting on me like them dividends from my last invest-ments.

This my call log, dawg, I'm more invest-ed.

I was stuck on what it coulda, shoulda, woulda been. Oh!

I had to digest the ebbs and flow.

I kept track of every no.

The naysayers, doubters, whoever pigeonholed.

Whoa.

Disqualified my efforts just because your session was contestable.

I broke your mold.

Don’t tell me not to touch the stove,

It got too hot.

You talk that side woo-wap,

You try to clear with someone else behind my back with someone else.

Ha, naw.

When I ante into that,

Confront him, he don’t remember that.

What a lame in fact.

You lucky I don’t venture back

To where Yaweh found me at.

Never mind that, let me back to me,

'cause lately I've been blossoming into something that I couldn’t see.

My debt ran deep,

All this pain was my currency.

The validation cache,

Hand me filing for bankruptcy.

About to erupt somethings,

These are the toughest seams.

Let me address somethings.

I ain't got nobody else to blame except for me.

Responsibility.

Reflection in the mirror giving the third degree.

Delving deep,

Like a scholar with a PhD from universities.

The knowledge brews like black tea.

These lessons brew a deeper steep.

The kettle's hot, the tea is sweet.

How dare I not release 16's?

Daring bars the death of me.

I sacrificed capacity.

I built a wall to oversee

Emotions that I left a sea.

No pardon when they pardoned me.

I'm second-guessing everything.

Don’t care what you think of me.

I just want to die on E.

Can I vent!