Where do I go from here

Why is pain everywhere

I have questions, yeah

What's the reason I fight

How can I know what's right

I have questions, yeah

Can you tell me why I'm here now

Tell me what's the thing I fear now

Make the muddy waters clear now

Cause I don't know

Can you tell me what's the reason

Why my life is dark and freezing

Why the things I do are treason

Cause I don't know

I get it sure God runs the world and that's Cool but where is this Hashem that they Showed me in school that Hashem was

The kindest and always did miracles but This one seems like a little too spiritual,

And let me explain what that means,

You say if you wanted then pray for it I say I did then you say I ain't prayed for it hard Enough you say that I owe Hashem for Everything he's done for me I say I ain't even feel his love

Then you scream at me and call me blind Cause God's the reason I'm alive

And that I don't care enough to try

And maybe you're right but

I've grown really tired of trying

Feel like everyone talking is lying

And something I don't understand is how Everyone say that they seeing Hashem's Hand,

just do mitzvahs and you're good,

But don't gehenom hit us all,

So tell me why should I be learning if I'll anyways be burning man??

I'm trying to find my way,

I'm searching night and day,

I'm looking for answers, yeah

I look up to the light,

God save me from my plight,

Hashem please answer, yeah

I decided that's it,

God's been ignoring my bids,

I guess I'll go out, try to find myself, and that's what I did,

Though not in a way that I thought,

Even though I struggled and fought,

God basically came right up to me and Said "Okay give me your best shot!"

And it turns out,

No matter how faithless I think I am,

I never missed one Shabbos,

or one tefillin,

I was scared of Hashem

And sure I made some mistakes,

None of us are perfect

But I needed to look deeper inside cause I Was just scratching the surface

And I'm not gonna say that I found out What's missing I've started to see Hashem's hugging and kissing sometimes When I talk I can feel Hashem listening,

But it ain't perfect,

Been having some times I fall back into Struggles and having some times where I Lose sight,

But I gotta push myself to remember that If I believe it'll be alright,

And sometimes it don't make any sense,

Like how could God do such a thing

And how come I could pray so hard for

Something and nothing comes of it like,

Sometimes the blessings are great,

And sometimes they're in a recession,

But I think I've come far enough to realize That it's okay to have questions

It's okay to have questions