I know you so well, so well

I mean I can do anything that he can

I know you so well, so well

I mean I can do anything that he can

Yeah, holdin' on, but I'm boutta lose my grip

Fall so deep in the damn abyss 'til it tears in half and I don't exist

I feel like a goddamn ghost, I don't got no friends, I don't got no hoes

I don't got no names in my goddamn phone, and I got kicked out, so yes I'm alone

So alone, and I'm so numb, my best friend is my damn gun

When it talks, and it says, "Just pop it, put it in a safe then I close and lock it"

'Cause I get to thinkin' 'bout the fam and thinkin' 'bout the damage

Wanna make my mom proud, wanna make my dad smile

Wanna make it out to the top like it's 8 Mile

But I get surrounded by this goddamn denial, yeah

I fight all the demons I hide, sadness inside of my eyes

Tellin' 'em all that I'm fine, really, they know that I'm lyin'

Back then I tried suicide, many attempts, cuts on my wrist, guns that would jam

I guess that I really had God hold my hand

He right my by side all through the night

Pullin' my arm 'til I'm droppin' the knife

Face all my demons, he forced me to fight

But now that I'm better I'm findin' the light

Manifestation has come in my life, allow it to guide, so I do it all right

I don't see static inside of my sight, now that I'm clearin' my mind, I'm feelin' alright

I know you so well, so well

I mean I can do anything that he can

Pop prescriptions, past addictions always comin' back

My name on it but it don't feel right, then I go to pop it, and my chest get tight

Then I'm wide awake through the goddamn night

Demons are back, I again gotta fight

Prayin' to God tryna find me the light, vision get blurry, I'm losin' my sight

I thought I would really get better

I tried it again and again, yet again I would fail

Feelin' so numb, and I never can feel, these panic attacks got me held in a jail

I'm startin' to feel like my life isn't real, I'm startin' to feel like my dreams won't prevail

I'm startin' to feel like I'm lost in a maze, I'm huggin' the right, never find an escape

I feel like it's not really me when I see

Like I'm watchin' my life through a screen

Then I gotta pinch myself, maybe cut 'til I bleed

Pray to God, gotta beg on my goddamn knees, yeah

Lookin' for hope tryna find it alone

Got my dad on my phone with a gun to my dome

Got my mom in my mind, all the demons behind me

I say that I'm fine, but I'm not, I been dyin'

They tell me to look for some help, I been tryin', I'm havin' a problem decidin'

Don't wanna commit to it, not gettin' into it, nobody listenin', nobody cares

When I was dyin' nobody was there, I feel like a ghost, I'm nothin' but air

They walkin' right through me, don't know what I'm doin'

I'm fightin' a battle I know that I'm losin'