You're a strong man, I don't feel like it

The battles I fight feel like t-minus

Only seconds I have to confront all my demons

When I could say go I just be quiet

I just try and I try it again

Stare at the ceiling while up in my bed

Never get sleep cuz I'm too busy dreaming

I wish I was famous but that's in my head

I know what I really want

To be living my life for the risen Son

But why's it so hard to give everything

When I know that you really the only one

You gave me this life, you could take it away

In the blink of an eye, I know that it could change

Please answer me why am I feeling this pain inside of my stomach and up to my brain

I think I'm insane, like I'm going crazy

I need a yes or a no not a maybe

I been asking for answers like all of my life

And I think that I'm tired of waiting

But how is that fair to you

This story got different point of views

Like you sent your son just to die for some people that take it for granted, aren't you feeling used

I ask for the good I deserve in my life

But I never think twice bout the bad I earned too

But up on that cross, the payment was made so that I could live new, I'm glad I can choose

Between living life while I'm here on this earth or forever with you, I know what to do

Still I make mistakes everyday that feel out of control, I would pray but I feel so confused