This is a part of me

Every time I stand the world starts spinning

Something in my ears or my brain not working

Something that you said made my hands start shaking

I was playing with my rings

Staring at the ground while your mouth kept moving

But I could not make sense of the sounds

I was mostly counting the vowels

This is a part of me

Cannot be removed without violence

Inextricable

Inexcusable

Intrinsic

Inoperable

This is a curse

This is a blessing in disguise

This is the truth

This is a sign

My veins have turned to mountain ranges filling with poisonous dye

The room recedes as I count from 10

I'm filled with an incredible calm

As the freezing walks up my arm

Every time I stand the world starts spinning

Every time I stand the world starts spinning

Every time I stand the world starts spinning

Every time I stand the world starts spinning

Something that you said made my hands start shaking

Something in your voice made mine start breaking

Cannot be removed without violence

Shadows in zeroes and ones

This is a part of us

Every time I speak your hands start shaking

Something I told you that we can't speak of

Something inside me that you can't see but

I will only say it the once

Speak our love in bitten tongues

But faith was not enough for me

As I close my eyes at 23