If I could fake it again

All the chances I had

Eat away at me for centuries

If I could change at all

I'd change the way this felt to me at least just on the outside

I'd live be with the memories that keep playing on repeat

And I'm giving up the lesser as I'm cracking under pressure

Knowing I can give you what you plead but I lack the strength to be what you needed

I float away, into emptiness space

And if I can't breathe there in the end, then what if you were my oxygen?

You spent fives years, Locked up in fear

That the man that I can be will lose to the man I am

And I can't believe, there's this version of me.

Holding cards on the table I can't let you see.

I know what you need, and if you need to leave

Burning glass from the sand designed just to make you bleed

Now it's my turn to hurt

And I have nothing left to lose or prove

Spending your time saving me while the whole damn time it was killing you.

So What the fuck was I thinking

When all that you built crashed around me?

I'd give anything to leave this wreck behind and find you elsewhere, somewhere new.

(Woah oh oh, woah oh oh oh)

If could fake it again, all the chances I've had

Eat away at me for centuries, but i can save it all

But you know that I am a liar and these hands catch fire, igniting the things I hold dearest to me

I can't believe, I'm this version of me

When it comes to my heart

No one's broken it worse than me