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Apologist
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Apologist was released on July 15, 2024 by 1102330 Records DK as a part of the album I Don't Have the Heart for This
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Release DateJuly 15, 2024
Label1102330 Records DK
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM92

Credits

COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Zachary M Brown
Zachary M Brown
Songwriter

Lyrics

Well I get scared when I get low like this
Start looking for my out
Just a swear-I'll-change apologist
Who refused to ask for help
And if you see me
And I tell you
That I'm okay
I'm not okay
I've used sex to quiet everything
Her hand around my throat
Drenched in holy water everynight
As a means to stay afloat
She said "Trust me boy, you're well hung
You'll get anything you want."
But the daylight chips away my charm
And all I've got's my haunt
Yeah I know it's an addiction
I've tried for months to sober up
But my mind becomes a prison
It decides my needs and wants
And I find it hard to hate myself
With scratches down my back
It's just easier to fade away
When I'm holding her hair back
But it's void of love
And life
And everything between
I've got some dirty fucking thoughts I like
And I keep 'em close to me
Like you
That knife
When you held it close to me
Yeah you just barely broke the skin that night
But it showed me what it means
To be alive
'Cause I've flirted with death my whole life
Written by: Zachary M Brown
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