(Hook)

I’ve been trying to breathe underwater,

I’ve been trying to hide cause I’m scared,

Confusing which is one from the other,

Cause it doesn’t mean so much in the end

(Verse)

Lately life is changing, and I can’t say it’s been painless

I can’t lie it’s kinda dangerous trying to deal with all this anguish

With my AK sitting next to me, it looks like liberation

I know suicide is dramatic but the thought of just escaping

This rat race it sounds amazing, and that’s to say the least

I mean the trap in and of itself, is trying to chase the cheese

Plus the years are flying by, I can feel it in my knees

Yet I still feel like a child because I still believe in dreams

And I wonder, can I make it man? How far can I take it man?

This here is a cold world, and I feel like a naked man

We all share the same hope, I know that I’m a poet

But we are in the same boat, and I know I can row it

I don’t care if you’re impressed, lately I feel like a mess

And I’m feeling so exposed trying to get this off my chest

But I guess yes, I’m an artist I’m just trying to do my best

Time to dive into this ocean, hold your breath

*inhale*

(Hook)

I’ve been trying to breathe underwater,

I’ve been trying to hide cause I’m scared,

Confusing which is one from the other,

Cause it doesn’t mean so much in the end

(Verse)

I always had this fantasy I’d blow up before 25

So I could buy my mom a house and she could quit that 9 to 5

And she wouldn’t have to worry about these money inconveniences

I’d fly her out of country, show her how pretty New Zealand is

Instead she’s coming home from the doctor with a brand new diagnosis

That shit eating me inside just like necrosis, I’m feeling hopeless

I guess that’s what I get for taking so much time off

From this music shit, now I can’t turn my mind off

I’m always overthinking, sleeping over drinking

On the weekend beating myself up and shit has got me weakened

No I know it’s not right but I can’t help how I feel

I’m watching interviews of the greats, I study skill

And I might not ever compare to that, but fuck it I’m not scared of that

In public they be looking at me, I wonder what they staring at

Like can they see my flaws? Can they see all my pain?

What if they knew my story? If they knew how far I came… damn

(Hook)

I’ve been trying to breathe underwater,

I’ve been trying to hide cause I’m scared,

Confusing which is one from the other,

Cause it doesn’t mean so much in the end