All my life I had to fight

If not against myself then it’s against the line of sight

Of hanging bodies that would make you lose your appetite

I’m stoic through emotions that all should’ve kept me up at night

A feeling that you’ll only feel with hindsight

It comes with a cost

Life’s a burning bridge I’m walking across

A crossed fate I couldn’t judge cause of the judgment I lost

And so I fight myself to stop, I fight against the cops

I fight against the will to live I’ve got

I fight against some homies down the block cause they don’t rep the same colours as me

But his skin is the same colour as me

Generational curses that I couldn’t see were drawing closer to me

This is far from who I wanted to be

Each passing year reminds me every time

It seems to blur with every memory leave behind

I held them in so I could think of you another time

You were my thoughts so when you left I truly lost my mind

But it’s fine, it wasn’t mine

Don’t let them take me, save me

Embrace then set me free

Before they cage me

How much more could I lose, knowing the guilt will be consuming me soon

I’ve been whispering sweet nothings to a ghost in the room

I know it is if it’s too good to be true

The truce broke when I said goodbye to the life I once knew

We know that black on black violence is only violence to them

They watch us buy some more watches and waste the money we spend

We’re bending backwards for them making their pockets fatter chasing our dreams

Because our lottery is rapping or to go to a league

The construction’s glued together by greed

Apartheid ended 30 years ago yet still we’re not free

You’d think this skin is a curse judging by history

Yet why we had to suffer for wearing it is a mystery, it’s never been that clear to see But it’s clear to me now

It shouldn’t be hard to say, but I hope we’ll figure it out

To cure the pain of watching my people’s lights shine to slowly burn out

This isn’t social commentary, I’m just thinking out loud

Don’t let them take me, save me

Embrace then set me free

Before they cage me

Maybe if it runs from me, my mind could sleep

Instead it only comes for me in every dream

Grief, Greif