I Am Not My Father

I AM NOT MY FATHER

I am not my father

I am not my father

I am not my father..

So why do I feel like I am

These days are getting harder

My heart is growing harder

I thought that I was smarter

What a fool I am

I never wanted to be like him

I guess I'll never know

Why it is that part of him

That I can't let go of

I am not my father

I am not my father

I am not my father

Why do I act like I am

I hear his voice a little louder..

Telling me that he couldn't be prouder

I saw him walking with my daughter

It was only a dream.

Sometimes I'll wear his sweater

When my heart's in colder weather

Thinking of when we were together

The way it was supposed to be

I hear him talking through my words

In the ways that I react.

Even swore to my mother..

That I'd never be like that..no

I am not my father

I am not my father

I am not my father

So why do I talk like I am?

I held his hand as he lay dying.

Made sure he never saw me crying

I sat there and held his hand in mine

For the first time