Anyway

I just saw a fucking cockroach

In my... In my bedroom

And then it ran away

This place is so horrible

My day starts off with intrusive racing thoughts

I wake up, then I do my make up

Then I try to brush it off

Even therapy can't make 'em stop

I go by my day like it is all a-okay

I'm fine, that's what I'm telling to my friends

But they don't get it, oh

Oh, forget it

And I work so much

Because I'm scared I won't be worth enough

And I'm so closed off

'Cause I don't think I deserve the love

And it feels like no one knows

They don't see what I don't show

Sometimes there's better days

But it always comes back my way, yeah

They say "Forget about it, yo

Can you just fucking let it go?"

As a matter of fact, I can't

But it's okay, no one understands me

Anyway

Hi, Lina. This is Dr. Weil. I haven't heard from you in over a month

And I'm a little concerned. Call me back

And every night I just lay there and I cry

Then I sigh thinking 'bout the reasons why

I feel this way around the clock

Wish that I could turn it off

These voices in my head, they never seem to end

I mute them I try to elude them

But they've got their roots too deep

It's hard to breathe

And I speak less

'Cause I feel like a burden and I get so stressed

With the tears I hide

'Cause I feel like I'm so unattractive when I cry

And it feels like no one knows

They don't see what I don't show

Sometimes there's better days

But it always comes back my way, yeah

They say "Forget about it, yo

Can you just fucking let it go?"

As a matter of fact, I can't

But it's okay, no one understands me

Anyway

Anyway

Anyway

But it's okay, no one understand me

And my friends, they promised

To be there for me

But the moment I lose it

They're all gone suddenly

And everyone's so fucking woke these days

But they don't understand me

And it feels like no one knows

They don't see what I don't show

Sometimes there's better days

But it always comes back my way, yeah

They say "Forget about it, yo

Can you just fucking let it go?"

As a matter of fact, I can't

But it's okay, no one understands me

Anyway

Anyway

Anyway

But it's okay, no one understand me

Anyway

Anyway

Anyway

But it's okay, no one understand me

Anyway

I can't. I already had to kill so many spiders

That are literally the size of my palm

And now there is a cockroach. I can't do this