Chicago State of Mind, Pt. 1

With my existence constantly in question

I tend to miss blessings in broad reflections

To whom is given much is tested

Whether it's lust for flesh or the rush u get when you buss ya weapon

Too hot for me but needed in any space I step in

Keep hidden blades the assassin's creed in me whenever I second guess it

Early lessons, momma kept her glock in dresser

Sasha Banks her boss perspective, trauma cost effective

Using yak and packs of za as common thought suppressors

Styleless Harry's lost direction

Quote the raven never more

Unless that raven rush and toss for tuddies out in Baltimore

Keep saying that running back can throw

That sack evasion apropos

In the jungle, slash ya tires, snatch ya rims, don got ya axel rose

Front porch attacked and back exposed

Run thru rackets McEnro - deo where you got them bag of clothes

Chicago folks been fresh as fuck on all boulevard and avenues ****

Co-signer free no need for your deity's calligraphy

Leave all meetings with dignity, CSI these lines in fine print forensically

I pull out every time cuz all these systems been designed to take my kids from me

So I'm serving 2 for 50s like it's 10 till 3

No early dismissal, principle driven

Hat sorted me Gryffindor before while showing us Slytherin propensity

Watch who y'all calling bro, blood or gutter, no loyalty in labels

Cain killing Abels for reneging on granny's spades table

To get it up out the mud you gotta lead this league in defense

Why these Boots could never leave my legs like DVDCD man

Hard as fuck to keep the peace in

When at your core more Skeletor than He-man

Conceal & carry pain from when pops forgot us on his weekends

That's a Knuckleball to catcher's eye

Innocence neglected, low introspective, no catchers in the rye

They talk that talk but when it's time to take that walk

These guys just step aside in preppy slides

Infested mind let chest decide spray pesticides

Not a demon I can't exorcise, Jujutsu Kaisen

Multiply yo guys I keep Square roots divided while dodging punching pilots

The way these kids is playing nowadays

Now and later flavor way these cowards raised

From off the top rope ricochets

Left a couple dents in Harvey just for switching face

So tuck and roll to different space

Cuz these soul calibers Jesse White tumblers will make you flip in place

Gotta let these bitch **** slide say we got too much at stake

Deescalate, escape or kill em legally depending on the state

The criminal and civil get dismissed but when I beat the case

I lay awake cuz that's another life I didn't wanna take

But this heart don lifted some heavy weights

In my endless search for peace & grace

I pray that when our babies play they streets is safe

Too late for these trees to turn that leaf keep deforestation on this waist

Throw winter north face on top of vest when full metal jackets penetrate

Thru kitchen walls and dinner plates, can't sleep

Cuz I work nights at the same hospital my grandmother died in

Hope she haunts the place so I can catch her on my break and let her know im trying

The fakest skin she knew I can't reside in

That's Hades tryna pawn Poseidon's trident, heated when they decline to buy it