I’ll Never See You

I started writing with the lights on

After that video of you

How can the words still scrape my insides,

And take away the time I spent just cleaning yellows out my blue?

Is it still your favorite color?

Don’t you go messing with my hues

I can’t believe the way you hate me

I can’t believe you think the worst part of it all was really me leaving you

I shouldn’t have listened

I should’ve kept myself more ignorant, I always thought I would

Is it bad that it still scares me

Through all the rough manipulations I can calculate some good?

Don’t make me think about the softness

Don’t let me verbalize the way

It doesn’t matter if we’re cautious

‘Cause I’ll never see you anyway

And I know that we’re both biased

But I don’t think I’m all that close to those who fuck you up for fun

I think it’s sick that it still helps me

To think that maybe after everything

I’m still your only one

I shouldn’t have listened

I should’ve kept myself more ignorant, I always thought I would

Is it bad that it still scares me

Through all the rough manipulations I can calculate some good?

Don’t make me think about the softness

Don’t let me verbalize the way

It doesn’t matter if we’re cautious

‘Cause I’ll never see you anyway

Ah, loser’s bruises

These are not excuses

Tell me how I messed you up

I’ll tell you I don’t give a fuck anymore

I am smeared across your floor

Out of breath

And you’re nothing less

I shouldn’t have listened

I should’ve kept myself more ignorant, I always thought I would

Is it bad that it still scares me

Through all the rough manipulations I can calculate some good?

Don’t make me think about the softness

Don’t let me verbalize the way

It doesn’t matter if we’re cautious

Don’t make me think about the softness

Don’t let me verbalize the way

It doesn’t matter if we’re cautious

‘Cause I’ll never see you anyway

It doesn’t matter if we’re cautious

‘Cause I’ll never see you anyway