camellia

I think its best that we don’t talk

Cause that’s all I wanna do

I’ve written eight track nines but

Every single line only rang half true

I had to study up just to learn I wasn’t sick

I wanted this to uplift

You’re not somebody I can quit

I just had to learn to live

Don’t break no-contact

Unless you want my heart back

And you gotta be sure

Cause I gotta stay on track

Funny thing about conditioning

You’d think it’s all you really meant

I would love to be your friend

Only problem is I can’t

Not until you leave my hand

They say you need space so you can manage

But even in space you’re my planet

And if my gravity pulled you in

The weight’s hard to withstand it

I can’t water my camellia

I need to take it off the sill

Already let the bud flower

I’ll cut the stem and watch it wilt until its killed

There’s a beauty in the grey I feel

That’s why I live where it rains all year

No, I’ll release you in the summer and appreciate the colour

I’ll release you in the summer

Don’t break no-contact

Unless you want my heart back

And you gotta be sure

Cause I gotta stay on track

Funny thing about conditioning

You’d think it’s all you really meant

I would love to be your friend

Only problem is I can’t

Not until you leave my hand