Looking back at the past, see how far I came

The ones that claim they don’t like you, they be loving yo name

Juggle all my issues, I’m dropping this pain

I’m different from society, no I’m not the same

They view me as a tourists, cause they never seen me

Well I’m changing that perspective, turn on yo TV

It isn’t easy being called to your point of living

You doing something wrong if you don’t find yourself quitting

Part of the mission, part of the plan, just gotta follow God’s order, its all in His hand

You can’t rush the process, or you’ll fall short

It’s like dealing with a judge, while dealing with court

They tryna pass me, need a boost, so I call a Lyft

They think I’m cocky but I’m humble cause I’m been through mmm

They expect me not to boat when my land was dry

They ain’t see the struggle, all dem tears I cried

Looking back at the past, see how far I came

The ones that claim they don’t like you, they be loving yo name

Juggle all my issues, I’m dropping this pain

I’m different from society, no I’m not the same

Writing is my therapy, grab my pen and paper

I write out all my problems, never been a problem chaser, but I be chasing, the voice of God so He can take me, to the territory, that He promised that He gave me

It’s a struggle, yes it’s hard but I make it easy

I gotta limit my thoughts, but my thoughts be creeping

It feels like Dsylexia when my thoughts be switching

Up my moods so it feels I’m never at a constant feeling

Tryna cover up my pain, at times it hard

Can you see that I’m in pain? Can you see my scars? Gotta make my momma proud so I gotta go hard

I may slip, but God make sure I never fall

Each way I turn, feel under attack so I gotta,

Use my discretion on when to turn back

I can’t be.. allowing myself to fall out of line I be, watching my step like who planted these mines?

Looking back at the past, see how far I came

The ones that claim they don’t like you, they be loving yo name

Juggle all my issues, I’m dropping this pain

I’m different from society, no I’m not the same

Tryna block out all the voices, that say I won’t make it

Tryna see what it’s go feel like sometimes I go fake it

They say you make your own reality, so imma go shape it

To a crown cause when it’s on my head nobody can take it

Closed my eyes and see my father tryna talk to me

Knew it was a dream cause I felt so happily

Ever After he left, cause now we just the best. He put on a ACT, graduated, passed his test

I guess I’m greedy, wanting more, never wanting less

I mean it makes sense, you know I come from less

Different typa pain, it was way more than just stress.. now I found some peace, now peace need to find me

It’s hard trusting yo brain, when you have a big heart

I’m a empath, so I feel hard

I need my own space, so I depart

Ion trust people, so I stay far

Looking back at the past, see how far I came

The ones that claim they don’t like you, they be loving yo name

Juggle all my issues, I’m dropping this pain

I’m different from society, no I’m not the same

Looking back at the past, see how far I came

The ones that claim they don’t like you, they be loving yo name

Juggle all my issues, I’m dropping this pain

I’m different from society, no I’m not the same