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Relapse
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Alternative Rap
Relapse was released on October 7, 2024 by Skard Up Ent LLC as a part of the album Relapse - Single
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Release DateOctober 7, 2024
LabelSkard Up Ent LLC
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM104

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Matthew Keegan
Matthew Keegan
Performer
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Matthew Keegan
Matthew Keegan
Composer
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Sabian Myers
Sabian Myers
Producer, Mixing Engineer

Lyrics

MATT KEEGAN - RELAPSE
I've been quiet for a minute, I ain't really doin much
I just had to take a break cause I kinda messed up
What I mean is I've been at the bottom with the dope fiends
Tellin everybody that I'm good man I'm so clean
Yeah, that's a lie but I post a perfect video
Got a couple million views, now I think I'm really dope
Validation doesn't really matter when you're empty bro
Crutches got you feelin like you're nothin but a silly joke
Lookin in the mirror, how you gonna tell these people though
You've been gettin high, you can't act like don't nobody know
Walkin round tellin everybody that you bout to blow
You ain't put in any work, you ain't playin any shows
I've been all alone tellin people that I'm zoned
But reality check, I'm takin Kratom to the dome
I've been livin in a house but I do not have a home
And I'm always by myself, I don't let no one get close
It's a..
Damn shame when I get it together
And then I start livin better
And then I burn it to the ground
I tell myself that I'll never really be sober forever
I wrote this song as a letter for when I....OKAY!!!
How many times can I relapse?!
I'm happy when I'm sober, tell me why can't I see that
One little drug bring me down to my kneecaps
How can I be strong when I'm weak in the same rap
I don't need a hook
You people wanna read me? I've been open like a book
If you wanna know my pain I can tell you where to look
What we feel is all the same just know I ain't always good
It's a struggle it's a fight - It's the dark vs light
It's the middle of the night when I'm cryin out for Christ
But that only really happens when I'm buzzed or I'm high
Then I wake up in the morning and it's gone and I cry
Dear God, please remove this obsession
I cannot stop getting high, the devil has me in possession
He promised me a little peace but within the disease
That makes me hurt myself I'm begging too be released
I'm on my knees
GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
AND THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
Back to reality and the prayer is ignored
I'm searchin for a little somethin that's gonna turn into more
I said I'll only take one but then I end up with four
And all them demons that I left come walkin back in the door
Now I'm back to square one
All that good was undone
I was good for 2 years, lost it all in one month
Every time I get high I do not have fun
I have come to far, I can not give up
Now I'm tellin you..
I've been livin a lie
And now it's time to get honest and let that part of me die
I'm comin back with a vengeance, I got that fire inside
I coulda ended my life but instead I chose to survive
I hope you're feelin me y'all
This energy has evolved
If you fell down on your face get back up or get off
Cause I have been at the bottom and I know how to lose it all
But I always get it back cause I ain't scared of the fall
Written by: Matthew Keegan
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