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I’m not her any more.

I haven’t been her in a while.

I am in too much pain.

My heart has been walking for miles.

And the truth is, I wanna go to bed and not wake up.

My intrusive thoughts are telling me to do bad stuff.

I feel stupid I’m embarrassed. I’m ashamed I’m naïve.

I’m explosive. I take up space

Put me at ease.

God, please.

Sorry if this makes you cry

I just wanna make it end.

I’m here, but I’m dead inside.

I smile, but I pretend.

Don’t recognize myself.

Don’t feel right in my skin.

I’ll hold on as long as I can.

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I held it in

and that drove me crazy.

If I let it all back and drown in it

I pray that you save me.

Cause I’m afraid. I’m confused. I’m impatient. I feel stuck.

What I want is on the edge

and I’m a million miles from luck.

I know my family needs me healthy.

Here I am all fucked up.

I don’t wanna die. I wanna live, but it hurts to fight.

Goddamn, this sucks.

Sorry if this makes you cry

I just wanna make it end.

I’m here, but I’m dead inside.

I smile, but I pretend.

Don’t recognize myself.

Don’t feel right in my skin.

I’ll hold on as long as I can.

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I don’t wanna die. I wanna live I wanna live.

God protect my life, protect my soul, protect my kid.

I don’t wanna die. I wanna live I wanna live.

I’d rather use my heart towards the things that I can give.

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