Me being the perso I am

I don't think I'm anyone's favorite

You know

There's no way,there's no way that someone in the world would just be thinking about me,you feel me?

Like I'm genuinely not that special

I know there's no way

Why?why would you be thinking about me?

The life I be living it doesn't feel like mine

Like I be living for nothing I wanna bleed and die

Another day will I make it through the week this time

When I'm alone in my room I feel so weak and cry

I don't know why I'm living don't wanna keep this life

I don't fit in with no one I've seen a million times

The love I have for myself I buried deep inside

I fell in love with this girl she said

Taking scissors I've been cutting myself

Yeah I know it's a sin but I'm prepared for hell

I got rejected when I told everyone how I felt

From my fam to friends I thought people would care

Don't be surprised when you find my body on my bed

Losing my breath cause I tried to overdose again

Don't even cry cause you had the chance and never cared

I always tried to open up and even share

Everyone lies I be smelling that shit through the breath

I'm really tired but who really cares

Cause if I sleep I'm never waking up again

Living my life but funny how I'm feeling dead

I don't know how I lost you I feel so ashamed

And now I'm fighting for my life I'm about to lose to pain

Is it me or myself I don't know who to blame

If I had another chance I'd choose you again

Hello, please leave a message after the tone

Hey guy, I heard what happened

Are you okay

I'm really worried about you

Your friend told me what you tried to do to yourself

Please call me when you get this

Please

The truth is, man I really struggle

I battle so many things and I try to be humble

Trying to be strong for myself but it's hard

Cause I keep falling apart every day

How quick it crumbles

I see my life is getting deeper I'm holding the shovel

And every day I wanna heal but my heart don't wanna

And the truth is I don't wanna cause I really love ya

I still keep on hoping one day we could find each other

If I overdose on pills don't call 911

Cause they never really cared, never gave no fucks

And if I cannot have pills I'll find a gun

Quickest way to really die cause that's what I want

But I hesitate to do it cause I think of mom

Cause I wanna make her proud through the grace of God

Cause I really seen her struggle that shit broke my heart

I've been hurt so many times I got painful scars

I know I'm a fuck up I never needed help

I only loved you more because I couldn't love myself

So many seizures that I had I'm losing all my cells

That's why you probably think I'm stupid and say I need help

But I don't man, we're gonna see in time

You found a reason to live, I found a love to die

I never really knew humans until I realized

They're the only care about you when you really die

I'm just, I'm just tired of making it

Every day I have to hide how I feel

Me, me being the person I am

I don't need to tell you what to do

There's, there's no way that someone would be thinking about me at this specific moment

And I, I know that I'm not that special to you

But why would you be thinking about me

And who would be thinking about me

Just to say they miss me

Or just to check up on me