I've Always Known It

Came the night now come the dawn

My breath alive with condensation

The rain still heavy in the south

The clay compact since Federation

The fear I feel is formless still

Liminal and drifting ‘til

I am circumspect and I

Expect that I won’t bank on nothing

 

I’ve been sitting on my own

Waiting for this thought to leave me

I am terrified that if you know

You won’t want anything of me

I ducked and dived for all these years

Sneak disguised as mutineer

I need space, that’s what I need

I just need space, need it to fill me

Please don’t panic, I will go

I’m too much, I’ve always known it

A lion on my outward skin

But inside I’m a trembling joey

There’s part of me that never grew

The other part too soon

I’m too uneven, too turned in

To ever be anything for you

Feel the rising of your heart

Watch me leave while I am silent

Some of us are broken and there’s no need to keep on trying