I wake up make my bed

Got a full night of sleep before I hit the gym

I make time for breakfast

I don’t skip meals like I did back then

I see less of my therapist

I take my walks, hydrate, and take my meds

On my own I’m not so restless

I know how to breathe to keep my vices in

But I still feel lost

I still feel broken

If I’m being honest

I think I’m still hopeless

Tell me why

Can’t I escape this life

Why is there nowhere to hide

Why can’t I just feel alright

I don’t feel alright

And I

I’m dying on the inside,I don’t wanna feel like

I’m being dramatic

I thought I would be healed this time

But I’m not alright

Some days I feel less

Like a mannequin missing my limbs and head

Sometimes I forget

About the days I said I didn’t want to live

I feel like it’s a trick

When I’m happy in a new relationship

I already see the end

So I pull the trigger and beat them to it

But I still feel lost

I still feel broken

If I’m being honest

I think I’m still hoping

Tell me why

Can’t I escape this life

Why is there nowhere to hide

Why can’t I just feel alright

I don’t feel alright

And I

I’m dying on the inside,I don’t wanna feel like

I’m being dramatic

I thought I would be healed this time

The monsters and demons just won’t leave

They try to protect the child in me

Who’s scared of being alone

Can I take the mask off, is it so wrong

To want to be messy and fall apart

And still somehow be loved

Tell me why

Can’t I escape this life

Why is there nowhere to hide

Why can’t I just feel alright

I don’t feel alright

And I

I’m dying on the inside,I don’t wanna feel like

I’m being dramatic

I thought I would be healed this time

Tell me why

Can’t I escape this life

Why is there nowhere to hide

Why can’t I just feel alright

I don’t feel alright

And I

I’m dying on the inside,I don’t wanna feel like

I’m being dramatic

I thought I would be healed this time

But I’m not alright

One day I’ll be alright

Just not tonight

Word salad:

In every monster, there’s a kid who just wants to be loved, but things they don’t deserve it

I spent thousands on a therapist I take my walks my blink, and take my meds

Wondering why am I not dead yet

When I’m burning alive

Feeling everytging and nothing

I got therapy and meds

To help me get by even when I think I can’t. I know I can just pick up my phone and call a friend.

I’ve tackled the final boss

So why do I still feel lost?

I’ve spent thousands

To face all of my demons

They say therapy and medication

Bring me closer to salvation

Pre:

But I still feel lost

I still broken

I still keep running

Then crawl on my knees

Hoping someone

Or something will save me

I’ve spent hours in my head

Sitting across all my insecurities