I Do

Oh, here I am again, choking on somebody else's dreams

Oh, here I am again, picking up the pieces that once were me

So I empty the house, I need the silence to start hearing myself out

I talk to the ceiling 'bout my feelings, quoting my girl Brené Brown

Can't tell if what I want is what I want or what you want from me

I want what I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

I do, I do, I do to have nothing to do with you

Nothing to do with you

I want what I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

I do, I do, I do to have nothing to do with you

Nothing to do with you

I've pulled the wool off of my eyes, and now I can't unsee what I see

It won't help either of us if I let you live your life through me

'Cause you made all the choices that you want me to

Oh

Tell me how has that been working out for you?

Is that working out for you?

I want what I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

I do, I do, I do to have nothing to do with you

Nothing to do with you

I want what I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

I do, I do, I do to have nothing to do with you

Nothing to do with you

I still love you

How will you love me

If I'm never

Pregnant and married?

I still love you

How will you love me

If I'm never

Pregnant and married?

But it does

And it will

It's hard to admit that you affect me still

All that I've done

Still not enough

It's like I'm still that anxious kid who couldn't be who I was

Skinny appetite, homecoming queen

Class president, but at night, I'd be sneaking out

Now I'm still running when I just want to be found

You say your heart aches

But how do you think that I feel?

When I struggle to decipher what you want from what is real?

What is real?

What is real?

What's mine?

What's yours?

What's real?

I still love you

But will you trust me

If I never

Get pregnant and married?