Today I'm sippin on fifth of that Bombay sapphire

Cuz lately life done been hella haywire

I'm saying RIP, way more than I ever did

Reminiscing bout days with my **** when we smokin mid

Rip to my cuzo Chunky, remember all the crack sessions

You had a lot shit going on with you personally and still you was smiling

I remember the family reunion we had in Lansing, when you went to chill with auntie Tonya

And this girl was digging on me in the hallway, so brought her in the room n use one of yo rubbers

N All the time we was chilling at Kipling, RIP my favorite uncle Kevin

He was one person who made me who I am today, I remember when he caught me drinking

Didn't even get mad at me, he told me that you gotta be able to support your habits

That man had heart of gold, and a hustler, he could make shit happen like magic

RIP my favorite auntie Stacey, all this death around me driving me crazy

I was talking to you the day before you left this earth and me and James was trying help, holy moly

I remember asking her can I live with her, cuz I thought my mom was mean

She was also One of the first auntie that actually heard me sing

She the main reason why I be saying everything purple

All this damn hurt in my chest, I feel this empty void, a wormhole

I ain't been able to think straight, cuz a **** been in so much pain

RIP to my big cuzo Geech, he was one of the realest **** alive mane

I remember days when we was struggling with Stoney, we was really thuggin

Young and wild **** mane I really miss my fuccin cousins

I can't say this type of shit at funerals so I be saying this shit while I'm dolo

I'm readying up my 7th dab, cuz I like to keep my eyes so low

Right now I'm a roller coaster of emotions only thinking about my past

RIP my big cuzos Ricky, Dana & Allen, imma hold it down like y'all asked

I ain't been sleeping as much so I stay up for a few days

I'll put in 60 hrs of work, no sleeping, smoking, but in a daze

I keep writing because I can't talk to anyone about I how truly feel

All I be thinking about is how imma continue to be starving if I don't seal the deal

My doctor wants me to eat more but I can barely afford to eat

I can't even keep my bills paid but **** wanna always get a free beat

I can't say I'm losing my mind, I done already lost it all

I'm running on pure adrenaline lately, wondering when I'm gonna fall

Depression really kicking my ass lately I ain't been having good nights

I'm losing my patience with everything and everyone, cuz nothing is ever going right

I can't even get a loan out, I can't even get help from family

I swear when I make it out, it's gonna be fucc everybody

None of you **** ever looked out for me like how I did for you

Now I'm stressing like a muthafuccah, spitting real til my face turn blue

I can tell a **** I need help, n you **** would just laugh at me

All the shit I've done for folks and now I can't get that same energy is blasphemy

I'm crying on a daily

Ain't nobody gon save me

Now I grow as cold as the artic be

Working while I'm hungry

**** thinking I'm choosing to starve, and choosing to be broke

**** think everything I say is funny, **** this is not a joke

A **** fucced up but **** don't give a fucc

**** what the fucc

I'm in a rut, **** I'm fuccin stucc, I'm one of the worst when it comes luck

Black Sheep, and soon I won't have to stress so much and sleep

My own momma n daddy don't like what I say in my raps, probably because I'm too deep

All I do is think, and maybe that's why my mind seems like it's fizzling

I just want to do right but life really got me manic as my soul keeps blackening

I ignore phone calls on a daily, just leave me all by my lonesome

I feel depression and all these pains daily, that a **** soul feel numb,