It Hurts Until It Doesn't

I felt alive for a little while But when I died I had the time to notice I was crushed by the weight of my own ego But never honest enough to say it I felt your love for a little while But never had the guts to give myself up I said that I could be just what you wanted As if I could ever keep a promise As if I could ever keep a promise You have eyes in every room But you won't see me You won't see me You won't see me walk away Once I was more than just a song to play On your haunted tape I don't want to be away Could have sworn I heard you laughing in the doorway I don't like myself When I'm awake I don't like myself When I'm awake