I'm an addict I'm an asshole

I'm annoying interruptive too talkative and too quite

all my thoughts are hard to lasso

I tend to speak at the wrong times I apologize I'm tryin

Neurodivergent narcissistic co dependent push away the ones who listen

I'm just different

I can't fix

Suicidal did I mention that I'm itching to leave

A premonition of death said it would bring me some l peace

A little bit of relief

My Mind is always running even though I'm standin still

I pop a pill it never helps I pop a bottle just to chill

I don't Appel to many people I just try to keep it real it seems the truth is hard to swallow

But the Truth is all I spill

Guess ill stay inside and never speak my mind

Keep the beast inside

Release the chains at night

Paint the wall with my mind

My thoughts are scattered around

The light is leaving my eyes

The walls are all falling down

Medication keeps me isolated

Sedated berated

By thoughts of my future constantly changing

Fade-in front of my face

Slowly erase

The place I find my minds is a mess a waste of time and space

Late nights spaced out lost my mind

I hate my self I'll be just fine

My face down blacked out break my spine

The noose around my neck stays tight

Not happy never lying to ya

My life is measured in inches and I keep breaking the ruler

A hole inside my medulla

From lead inside of the ruger

I've felt outside of my self

Because inside I'm a loser

Life's a tragedy I'm mad at me and sad to be alive

Twice a day I play Glock like a flute then change my mind

I'm insane I'll never change but honestly I'll be alright

When my thoughts are way to heavy got the bottle by my side