You in June

On the first day

Felt a little shake in my step

A little anxiety that overlapped

The birds sang slightly out of tune

But I started to let go of you

On the second week

Started reaching out to my mom

Reassurance that I did not do anything wrong

Still heard the birds in the afternoon

And I started to forget about you

And I am no longer designed for any other

That soaks up every scrap

Of my goodwill and heart attacks

And I've been embarrassed

Of my role in codependence

But I've finally had my fill

I'm better off just keeping still

No tipping over

Water line's getting lower

Something tells me that it wouldn't make a difference

If you loved me or if this was just common sense

If you hate me then I'll understand the consequence

On the second month

I walked around my block

The ivy on the houses grew

And seemed to have never stopped

Got a cup of coffee

Where we were just last June

And I started to think about you

But there's no real bad feelings

Just a changing of the seasons

Ever since that day in June

I've been in my own cocoon

But there's no forward stages

Just liminal spaces

It's not just that, I know

But it's worth mentioning to show

How much I wish

Everything was different

On the first day felt a little shake in my step

Tripped over a loose stone on the pavement

Patched myself up and went on with my afternoon

And I started to forgive you