I still ain't talk to Rell

But when I told him about this rap he told me give em hell

I said man now you know for real

Wish he call my phone it's been so long I heard he had a kid

Cousin got out asking where the like he did a bid

Not stuck in the past I'm moving forward I feel my fate is sealed

I ain't talk to manny cuz he at this point I never will

Same ones I was skipping with a back door me prolly get me killed

Cuz said keep rapping it'll be ok the day you sign a deal

So fuck it

I know I said Id stop taking pills but how when I love em

I put my life in Jay money hands he just like my brother

Stuck solving all these problems I solve one here come another

What you know bout feeling all alone same time feeling smothered

I'm fresh out the gutter

Popping on these downers I'm losing function

I'm on hough and thugging fire like a dragon but out the dungeon

Cousin got robbed for some money now they saying that I done it

If I did it then what who gone do sum to me nobody

I know you not here no more but Mattie you gotta give me something

If you want a tweaker Sav or Ian you gotta come a hunnid

Times 5 that

Lately I just push shit to the side the same place where my pride at

You said you wouldn't leave of course you did I know you been a liar

They say love don't ever cost a thing but silly me I buy it

They always dog me just like a pit like they can't see me trying

Fuck lupus I give my life and body just to save Maryah

Music or the streets why I ain't been decided

Just play the beat I get to venting

You said you solid you said you got us you said you riding but you didn't I'm feeling nauseous the way they do me is the sickest

My body failing I mix narcotics in my system

And some illegal some I don't need em some prescription

My uncle evil pray to a needle blame his condition

He worship Allah I pray that Allah just forgive him

She said she sorry but at this point it's no forgiving

They said they miss me zay where you at my grave I'm digging

I'm joking kinda but anyway I'm in the trenches

Bipolar symptoms I'm tired of my emotions switching

Grandma I did it just watch this only the beginning