am i the problem

The feeling you get when the moment hits

It's more than a drug 

And I envy it

The love you feel

Shivering beneath my skin 

I'm warm enough to hold it in

But it's not real 

My soul is crushed

With flames I grow

And I know it in my bones

Am I the problem 

Am I the reason 

Am I the source of my mistakes

The one that doesn't know my ways

Do I deserve it 

Do I believe

That I'm not worthy of this life

When I push away the love

That I receive

Forever frozen

It's all locked in 

Building up my mind

Building up my walls

I force the healing 

But I lose them all

All the love

That they build up

And I tear down 

I can't stop bleeding

My soul is crushed

With flames I grow

And I know it in my bones

Am I the problem 

Am I the reason 

Am I the source of my mistakes

The one that doesn't know my ways

Do I deserve it 

Do I believe

That I'm not worthy of this life

When I push away the love

That I receive