What’s meant to be will be, just gotta give it time

Reason, season lifetime, skimming my timeline

Life on a skyline, only sunshine’s, before everything blew up like a land mine

I believe in karma, pushing positivity or that shit will haunt ya

Can’t tell you how many times I got caught up in drama

Chakras all fucked up, couldn’t reach nirvana

And that’s facts

Summer 2011 was a hell of year, reached new heights, & I lost all my fear

No pun intended, got the ball rolling

Everything in motion, just floating on the waves flowing like a fucking ocean

College coaches sending notes,

Mailbox overflowing

After games they’re approaching, that shit had me boasting, feel like they were knowing I had that fucking potion

Only a kid but my arm was golden

Fast forward 2012, senior year I’m soaring, high school musical Troy bolton caught

Between love and ballin

Thinking back I should’ve broke her heart we weren’t growing I should’ve saw from the start

Playing our rivals in semis, to the ship we were heading, at least thats my perception, felt a knot in my elbow, stretch to release the tension

Next pitch there’s a pop, it was my tendon

Damnn, no happy ending

That was just the beginning

Same week I found out that she was really cheating, i couldn’t believe it

She gave everything butt head like she was beavis, welcomed them to her crib like she was MTVin

This life shit odeing, I was barely sleeping

Kind of ironic cause I really thought I was dreaming

No baseball, no love, damn I was tweaking

Like the beat i felt the climax appearing

Like a 9.5 earthquake, life was chilly

Only 19 feeling 60

Shit got dark like whiskey

I was always tipsy

Had the tree rolled up in a fuckin Philly

I’m talking sticky icky,

One more chance like biggie

Days moving slow, it felt like a century

How could it get worse?

Breaking all these barriers to get humbled by the universe, like a movie nothing rehearsed though

Shit only got worse, don’t even like talking about this cause it truly hurts, had to leave campus and go home, clear my mind of what just occurred, thought chillin with fam would ease the nerves

Finally felt optimistic, Looking for change, and it made sense, yet the energy still felt shifted,

Knot in my chest felt so sickening, why am I losing when I’m so used to winning?

Older sis hit my phone like “yo let’s go take a trip”, got weed, got liq, shits about to be lit,

She knew I needed it, lifted my spirit,

Forever cherish that, in my mind so vivid

If I would’ve known that’s the last time I see you on earth, I would’ve gave that extra hug you deserved

Almost 12 years later and it hurts worse

One thing after another, fuck

It’s like we were cursed

Taught me to live for the moment, not the past or the future, just another component to how I maneuver, god presented you and took you back prematurely, lord knows there’s a reason you were due early

That shit fucked with my health

Fall 2012, I needed more help

Just came off surgery, wasn’t myself

Kept it bottled up, felt like I was casted a spell, damn casted a spell

Just trying to prevail from under, From the ground up like a jumper, only trying to recover, crawled out my hole like I was stuck in a bunker, ready for war, stronger through the thunder,

Wheels Rolling no wonder