I know that you've been hurting, but can you recall that day when you lost Zolan

For a practice, the more you face the truth over what happened, the more you can be at

Peace with everything

I know that it's easier said than done, but I just want you to try your best

Let's start at the beginning, when you were with ZZ and you got that call

The doctor called me, my heart dropped down from my chest to my feet, like I know that

This can't be it

I was with Z, chilling at a basketball game, but when I got that call, I knew that we had to leave

Racing down 85, asking God why, why you bring so much pain to my little guy

He's only five months old, he's been through the worst

I can't even fathom putting him in the hearse, but I know he's still with me

He's strong like his mommy and daddy, I just want to see my little Zo happy

Wrapped in breathing tubes, stitches on his chest, but I know he's gonna make it cause he's better

Than the rest

I get to Choa, running up to the lobby, I see Mitzy there and I want to see his body

But she had to tell us the terrible truth, that Zolan just passed away around noon

I am my son's savior, his protector, I bought a new house so it could be his shelter

I don't know what I did wrong for you to be gone, I thought you would bury me when I'm

Finally gone

It should've been me, I lived out my dreams, and you're the only one who truly completes

Me

I'm the one who really should've been a savior, now he's gone and I feel like a freaking failure

So broken, never felt pain like this, you would never think that it would be your own kid

Struggling to breathe, can't catch my own breath, I didn't think that I would be looking

At death

I burst out the room, I dropped down to my knees and asked God, man why you take Zo so soon

Why can't it be me

Cause I'm the biggest sinner, my son's so pure, since the very beginning

It takes six nurses just to hold me back, they cut off the strings so they never be attached

It's like God put the strongest knives in my back, and so many scars, man I don't know

How long I can last

How many tests do I have to pass before I break

What else do I have to give before I can take

I'm living through a nightmare that I can't escape

I'm living through the nightmare that I can't escape

I am my my son's savior, his protector

I bought a new house so it could be a shelter

I don't know what I did wrong for you to be gone

I thought you would bury me when I'm finally gone

It should've been me, I lived out my dreams, and you're the only one who truly completes me

I'm the one who really should've been his savior

Now he's gone and I feel like a freaking failure

Holding your body, wishing you would wake up

I didn't think that I'd be feeling so stuck

It always rains on the ones who deserve the sun

I still can't believe I really lost my only son

At peace now, you no longer feel the pain

Born when it rained and it died when it rained

All of us together be playing GTA

A part of me died, I'll never be the same

Leaving out the hospital without you with me

Driving back home and the car seat is empty

So many memories flash to my eyes

I still can't believe that I lost my little guy

How can I live when a part of me is now gone

How can I live right when everything feels wrong

How can I be the same when I have nothing left

So keep blessing me while your soul stays at rest