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Subnivean
Industrial
Subnivean was released on November 19, 2021 by drrtgrrl as a part of the album Drrtgrrl - Single
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Release DateNovember 19, 2021
Labeldrrtgrrl
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM111

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
drrtgrrl
drrtgrrl
Performer
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Brandon Lever
Brandon Lever
Composer
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
drrtgrrl
drrtgrrl
Producer

Lyrics

Here, in my place of frozen comfort
Where others would not survive such desolate isolation
Let alone find solace, exists my refuge
Between the glacial tundra and the ice sky
In the solitude i find safety from my fears
However much so it also confirms them
Unlike you
You, in your place of warmth and ease
Without a second thought, step on me
Destroying in but a moment of apathetic entitlement
What has taken me years to obtain
And then tell me it's my fault that I'm hurt
It's not surprising, considering that
Everything I had to desperately work for
You were given at birth
You knew what I was, you let me
Feel understood by someone
And eased me into your illusion that I was anything more than
Then you blame me for not being your
Imagined figment of my personhood
And then couldn't handle when I showed you my divergence
It, like a painting at the bottom of a well
Where you can make out the shape but not the scars
As if you didn't already know
As if I could have been anything else
Given the circumstances
Sickly, I ran to you
And you, full of spitting apathy
Destroyed everything you told me to love about myself
The pain of knowing the true state of existence
For I have been to the void
And came out alive
Emptier than before
Unlike you
Who only knows the shadows on your glass house
Cast by the fire of everything you thought you could be
Now I am reminded of what I truly am, my true form
Whereas you, a creature of the surface
I am instead a girl of the graveyard
A cryptid of the underbelly
I am from where the only law is luck, and wit
Unlike you
Where you find Grace at every corner
I am drrtgrrl
And while my story is not uncommon
It is allthewhile unfinished
For while your world burns, mine remains frozen
Formed of mud and birdlime and granite
For through my sickness and suffering
I have the strength, to endure and thrive
"Singing"
When I was
A little worm
In the great unknown
My nest was infested
With tormentous termites
That nicked and picked
At my bones
My mother she'd feed me
And saw the bloodsucking
And chose to
Leave me alone
All of her actions
Resulted in transactions
That made me grow
And made the bloodsuckers
Hate me more
As they multiplied
They divided and conquered
The concreted ground
Until I was covered
And no part of my body
Was my own
They ripped at my throat
I couldn't say a note
To anyone
Or anything
About my pain
I had no control
Inside my own home
The tormentous termites
Wanted
To eat my soul
Moving forward
I will look back
At all of the anguish
All the things that I lacked
All that we can do
With every sunset
Is keep moving forward
And try again
We'll try again
Don't give up
You can try again
Written by: Brandon Lever
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