Persona

What have you got in life to be pessimistic about

Everything's worked out for you time and time again

Somebody's bailed you out or you've shouted 'til it stops

Look at me yet again I'm chock-a-block

Open the door what do I intend to see

I've not been really drinking lately

I don't expect it to show because I look like shite

On this scribbled page I exert my vice

I met a mate last week he said he's never gonna win

How's life is it decent

Nah it's fucking draining

And I'm praying it'll improve someday

But to that I said to stop simply wishing it away

I should take my own advice

I live my life on the edge of a knife

If you make way for me

Then I'll fall into you

I'll forget all your flaws

And put yours within my paw

On my page make your mark

New chapter of my story arc

But you can't

Or you won't

Something's stuck inside my throat

Bile yer heid smug bastard

It'll end up in disaster

I tried to cope with no words spoken

Spit them out 'til I'm nae choking

Chuck a few curses in there

And then the sentiment's laid bare

Will we talk it out

Try to

Erase the line that

We drew

If you just embrace your terrible luck

Then from the roughest patch you'll become unstuck

Should I just take my own advice

Be a necessary sacrifice

If you make way for me

Then I'll fall into you

I'll forget all your flaws

And put yours within my paw

On my page make your mark

New chapter of my story arc

Is it jealousy

Or is everybody taking the piss out of me

Can't make my nerves settle

I'm still falling into the old cycles

I say i'm different and then I don't start anew

The most difficult feeling is failing yourself

Knowing that each morning

Affixing the stirrups and riding out

I am someone I am not -

You act like you care

But you only support self-preservation

Which whipped me into submission constantly

I don't care for this cohabitation

And I can't continue without my body

I won't let it belong to anyone but me

I affirm that I quit

Stop it

Your one wish is to maintain control

But I am my self-worth

I am a man

And these old paradigms plague me

Perhaps the cycle doesn't break

And instead I do

Then each chance I take to better it

Builds me back up from the boiling point

I am strange

I quietly accept myself

In the way I suppose I should

I am you

And no longer will I separate the two

My halves are hell and they are heaven as well

Full of contradictions

The hierarchy is hard to break

And as I get older it better get easier

I'll bend over backwards if you'll do the same

When we die

We'll do it as one

We'll do it alone

It will be documented

And until, I will

Continue to become what I am

It can't be stopped

I won't turn back

And that's that