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kill myself
album cover
kill myself was released on April 25, 2025 by lyam as a part of the album How Everything Starts
ReleasedApril 25, 2025
Labellyam
LanguageEnglish
BPM125
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy

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Lyrics

Got a brown old leather jacket and nothing to wear with it
And my weekly bar marathon, for when I feel like dreaming
And some lights that shine through the window in the morning, and outside noise when my nights get boring
And a narrow street that sells out x magasines
Got a fridge so loud for my mind to keep writing
And a hundred million thoughts for all the things that I'm missing
And a big sink for when the guests are eating, but I keep on giving them food poisoning
I wish mom was near she would turn on all the warnings
Had a sense of living a hard life, and I taught myself how to bend
And it's everything to me now to know how everything ends
If I was living like a wildcat, now I'm living like a jailed man
If I could scream all my love out, I wouldn't do it in silence
I got these three little words in my mouth that I use like a poem
I'm somewhat of a new child that's learning how to say them
Without crying and screaming it out loud or using it way out of pocket
I used to hate loving you in your house, now I'd kill myself to stay in it
I'm being a grown up, but learning it backwards, was taking me so long
I love you I mean it
I'm taking the hard road with rocks on the pavement the signals were all wrong
I love you I mean it
You stop for a second, and jump from the sofa I thought we would kiss in
We're not on the same team
You walk me to the door but the trains are all sleeping, I think that we're stuck here, I loved you I meant it
I run to the kitchen and open a drawer, first knife that I'm finding goes right through my wet skin
You know I don't blame you, you're part of the old scheme, of baiting the young boy to bite where there's nothing
It usually works out, i bleed on your doormat, if you open the door now, I'll love you I'll mean it
Written by: Thomas Chevalier

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