I stay alive off what’s killing me slowly

I haven’t been sober for days

And if I was to tell you all of this

(If I was to tell you all of this)

I know just what you would say

Any absence of hate feels unfamiliar

Because the pain that I bring myself

Always remains like imprints

Embossed and etched into my wrists

Torment resides in the movies stored

Inside my wandering eyes

My mind only exists to make my life

A fucking nightmare

(I created my own misery)

I wish I could extinguish my own flame

And for no one to recognise

The loss of warmth

Behind my face rests a mind battered to senselessness (wish well to me and my mistakes)

Tell me why you find it so hard (but don’t you act surprised)

To rip me from your memory (when you know I was addicted to the blade)

My heart beats for a feeling that no longer exists

Bandage my scars with your will

Or just let me die

Long live to anyone but me

I know hatred exists because I am so full of it

My heart lives like a graveyard

Sunk so below in my own body

Piercing every nerve I once named strong

I guess I’ll sselesnes smra ym tuc

I’ll tihs ot pu meht ecils

Self-inflicted pain is worse when

You’re the reason why you did it

"It’s uh-

It’s not worth it

Whatever it is, it’s not worth it"