I Just Want To Be Happy (feat. Solaria & Ritchy) [2025]

I was blind but now I see

Eyes wide open with a new clarity

It dawns on my how the polarity of my vulgarity is part of me

Sadly the reality is in the end all I ever get

Is a night filled with regret

Though I've tried to forget

I have not succeeded yet

It's a debt upon my skin

It's a game I cannot win

Seven hours of guilt for seven minutes of sin

What could I have done to appease my inner beast?

What must I endure for a chance at inner peace?

Every time I rise I could never feel at ease

With the raw emotion in me begging for release

I'll leave the past in the past and erase that history

And I'm busting and busting my balls to finish my degree

'Work smarter, not harder, follow trends,' they say to me

'Cause if it's only me who likes it, it's just masturbatory

I don't want to be horny anymore

I just want to be happy, just want to be happy

Is it really too much I'm asking for?

I just want to be happy, just want to be happy

Just want to be happy

I'm so disgusted with myself

Dwelling on the thought that some day I'mma go to Hell

For the stuff I've seen, all the crazy stuff I know

Stuff I found arousing while browsing through seven incognito windows

Now that the deed is over I feel the mental scars

Delete that homework folder, but deep within my heart

Can't shake the nagging the tagging got bad and real bizarre

Vanilla was my thrill until I tasted NTR

I'm so ashamed, but with it comes a change

A hidden power even though I'm physically drained

I feel it in my veins, the blood returning to my brain

And now it's like I'm breaking free from a cage

Like a sage, I've reached enlightenment and with it clarity

And I look back on my life and ponder all its mysteries

I don't want to be successful, I don't want prosperity

Now I see, I just want to be happy

I don't want to be horny anymore

I just want to be happy, just want to be happy

Is it really too much I'm asking for?

I just want to be happy, just want to be happy

I don't want to be horny anymore

I just want to be happy, just want to be happy

Is it really too much I'm asking for?

I just want to be happy, just want to be happy

Just want to be happy

I just want to be happy

Just want to be happy...