I've been up since yesterday

Tryna heal the scars I made

I know I did this to myself

But I've been building walls around me

I understand if you doubt me

I've been trying to reach you

But I feel like I'm drowning in my words

Would you like me better if I kept my guard up?

'Cause they took everything from me, now I'm scarred up

I just wanted to be myself, but you hate that

And I just don't wanna be alone, but can't say that

You threw your life away for someone that could never save you

And I just ride the wave, because I knew you wouldn't stay true

It's only getting worse 'cause I wake up and have to fake it for another day

Should I throw it all away?

Should I throw it all away, should I throw it out the window?

Pray to God I'll watch my sins go

And I've been taking time to decompress

I never show my mind, I just deflect

And I carry these burdens on my chest

But you barely care, if I had to guess

I guess this is just what I get

Such a fragile soul I must protect

I've been up since yesterday

Tryna heal the scars I made

I know I did this to myself

But I've been building walls around me

I understand if you doubt me

I've been trying to reach you

But I feel like I'm drowning in my words

Would you like me better if I kept my guard up?

'Cause they took everything from me, now I'm scarred up

I just wanted to be myself, but you hate that

And I just don't wanna be alone, but can't say that