11/25/24

The worst day of my life I woke up around 11.30 to the worst call of my life

They told me Ma was in the ER for high blood pressure

I ain't think much of it, but still had to slide cause she my treasure

I live four hours away, that's a slight drive

Almost Thanksgiving so I'll stay over the time

Bought my girl too, cool little trip

I know when I arrive, Ma would love to see her kid

We stop for food and gas, maybe I should get Ma some, no I'll do that when I see her, it ain't really none

Back on the road, arrived at night time

Let pops know I arrived, peep the LED car lights

But something wrong, I can see it in his face

Baby girl asked how she doing, she okay She in bad shape, my dad said heavily

Then a swift silence before I can finally see

Opened the door, walked in the room

Looked at my mom, she asleep on breathing tubes

A tear dropped by my face, cause I fear the worst I look up at my dad, I can see his hurt

He tells me, Ma had an aneurysm Her brain bled, I'm like, they did surgery

Yeah, no they didn't son, too much blood in her head

They told me earlier, she declared brain dead

No this can't be, Mama please, fell down to my knees

I'm in shock, I can barely breathe I can barely think, so much tears dropping

I can't do it, Mama tell me this a dream What am I supposed to do without her

**** praying she get better On our knees, biting sweaters

God you better fucking hear me Man I postcard you a letter

But as time goes on, it starts turning to delusion

Who we fooling? Mama gone, God you a hoe for pick and choosing

All my tears are gone, I swear I can't even cry no more

We waited all night for Ma to wake up, this shit blows

I'm so tired and hurt, but I can't really sleep

How can I shut my eyes when hers can no longer blink

Let's skip a few hours, we on November 25th

Morning time, I never left, Ma, I'm still here

Doctors come and tell us they gon' scan her brain again

I'm praying the blood gone to have all my family again

They take her out the room, she gone for about an hour

They bring her back, no improvements, it's looking real sour

We ask them what's next, there's a final exam

If she pass, that means Mama really brain dead

They run the exam to see if there's any bodily functions

But there wasn't, man there wasn't nothing

Doc looked at us and told us and told us at four.30 she declared gone

November 25th, 2024

Is the day I lost my Ma