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I'm living most of my whole life like I'm on a vacation

Hoping my future will be proud of places I've been

Starting to wonder if I'm even actually someone

My actions don't seem to suggest that I've been anything

I'm making a home here I never wanted

My balance is constantly tipped on a lazy weigh station

I'm passing the point of return on the cash that I spend

I'm driving three hours to places I don't really matter

But smiles keep distracting from truth that I'll never attend

I'm making a home here I never wanted

Running from places I don't wanna have to belong in

I'm starting to forget when I wasn't here

I'm desperate for shelter from truth that I feared

I'm making a home here that I never wanted

I wanna know what it feels to belong in

I'm starting to feel like I might not be all that important

It seems so relieving to not have a place I should be

It feels like a blessing to know that you're actually no one

The future is bleak but it's also never felt so free

I'm making a home here I never wanted

Running from places I don't wanna have to belong in

I'm starting to forget when I wasn't here

I'm desperate for shelter from truth that I fear

I'm making a home here that I never wanted

I wanna know what it feels to belong in

I'm making a home here that I never wanted

I wanna know what it feels to belong in